Tuesday, September 6, 2011

The calm before the storm

After the Moron said "it was over" and took the Lil Pixie and left the room, I felt the most amazing thing.  Relief.  I felt as if the World had been taken off my shoulders, I felt lighter, and perhaps (though I didn't realize it at the time) I felt my world getting back on track.

The Moron had gone into the spare bedroom,and the rest of the day is a kind of blur.  I know at one point I had put the Lil Pixie down for her nap (afterall, I was really the only one who fulfilled the parenting duties unless he was putting on a show, parading her around town tires, hungry and always inappropriately dressed).

At one point in the evening when the Lil Pixie was down for the night, I went into the spare bedroom. The Moron was in bed with a pen and a notebook.  He had written on a piece of paper what was going to happen as a result of our breakup.  He was to get the house, since he was paying for it.  I was a grown woman, he said, so fully capable of taking care of myself, so no spousal support.  And we would split the Lil Pixie down the middle, he would get her for a year, then me for a year, so there would be no need for child support.

Despite it being incredibly warped in logic, it was the most mature conversation we had ever had.  The calm before the storm...

6 comments:

Being Me said...

Cold.. I always believe what goes around will come around. 

Gran said...

the moron is also a jackass. 

Paula said...

Hi Suzie, its Paula, I contacted via email a few weeks ago. I am still at the woman's shelter. have received incredible support there. First time where I see him react toxic as he faces charges. Not straight away as I am more interested in getting my papers done. I am allowed to self petition under Violence against Woman act. Will be my justice and my healing. So I can relate. The first day of the rest of my life has been tumultous. I escaped. I am alive. Life is good.

Suzie Q said...

The first steps are the hardest, I am so very proud of you, Paula.  Use your support systems.  Listen to your inner voice, your true one.  Be kind to yourself, and know that you deserve better, you are choosing that.  Hard times will come, unfortunately, but if you stay the course, and stay safe, you will be free. You know yourself and him better than anyone - STAY SAFE. Know you are worth it. I am here if there is anything I can do...

Suzie Q said...

Glad to know I'm not the only one who thinks so ;)

Suzie Q said...

I do too, Being Me.  The Universal law has an interesting road to justice, I do believe.  Sometimes our justice system is severely lacking, and karma can really be a bitch!!!

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